gosmoking

i have wanted you for ever. you have meant more to me than a lot of stuff. and i still want you. across times of celebration, alone-ness, anxiety, defiance, strength, stress, being cool, i find me seeking you. the pain and the dependence is par for the course: never have i thought less of you for it.

but in all my trade offs i hadn’t bargained being ostracized because of us. my need to belong was what drew me to you in the first place. with that gone, there is no point.

bye, bye love.

posted by goldfluke @ 8:40 AM